Saturday, October 19, 2013

Contribute or criticize, continued...



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I have never thought of it in Brene Brown’s perspective, “Courage or comfort, what’s it going to be because you can’t have both.” But, I believe she is absolutely correct in her observation. Anything I’ve challenged myself to do, and regardless if I’ve won or lost, I am still a better person today for pushing outside of my comfort zone. This is the case in my career and in my personal life.

If I would have not applied for jobs that were above my current qualifications, I would have not been motivated to gain those qualifications. I remember when I decided I wanted to move from inside sales to purchasing and when I first applied for the job; I was turned down. I didn’t have the schooling, so I went and got it. The next go around, I again, didn’t get the job; there was a more experienced candidate. So I pushed harder and by the 3rd time I applied years later, I got the job. I worked my way up the chain in this arena until I hit the highest level in our organization, Director of Purchasing. I learned a lot about business negotiation, management and myself. These experiences taught me a lot and as I transition into this new phase of my life in Mental Health Counseling and then eventually Art Therapy, I am grateful for my past and so very excited about my future.

Had I listened to my inner critic who has always capitalized on my economically poor upbringing, my uneducated self (in the early years), and my shy demeanor, I would have not challenged myself to continue to reach higher, I would have just coward away and I’m guessing I would have not found my way to my soul work as I have today. It is a great place for me; I cherish my life. It is truly sacred.

Are you daring greatly or living in the shadows of your most inner desires? Drop me a note and let’s talk about it. I’m hear to listen and interface if you’d like.

Perfectionism, continued...


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I have always thought of myself as a perfectionist although I never thought this was a good thing. I've sacrificed a lot of health because of this unrealistic expectation I've put on myself.

Watching Life Class and listening to Brene Brown's perspective has given me a new understanding of my inappropriate quest to be perfect. Perhaps, I'm hiding behind this to avoid negative feedback? I've never thought of this in this way before, but it makes sense. I do not know anyone who likes backlash but regardless of how hard I try or anyone tries for that matter, there are always people who do not approve.  We have to learn to live our lives for ourselves. It is the best way to live!

What are your thoughts?

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Writing fultime, continued


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Mary Baker continued the interview.




She talked about her support system, “My family was very supportive! They knew I was going through a tough time emotionally as well, and they were unfailingly supportive. I also discovered a wealth of opportunity and talent in the crowdsourcing site Elance. Elance gave me my first easy assignments, and I have cultivated client relationships that have lasted for over three years now. It was through Elance that I also discovered I have a talent for ghost writing. Having an occasional glass of wine with friends and associates who are also creatives (illustrators, graphic artists, PR consultants, videographers) provides a way for all of us to talk shop and discuss solutions for the usual gritty business problems. And Facebook provides an important daily dose of social interaction for those days when I am spending all day alone writing and editing. And of course, my loyal dog, Rebel Rose, who loves and supports me unconditionally.”

Her closing words, “Since starting a blog about reinventing myself after the loss of a relationship, I've received emails and calls from other women going through the same transition. So (in my spare time at 2 am) I am writing a novel about the whole process. It's meant to be a humorous romp through the minefield of midlife dating and reinventing oneself. The title is Ten Bells and I estimate it will be finished in June 2014.”

You may contact Mary via email at mary@solid-communications.com
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Betrayal and forgiveness, continued...



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Forgiveness is extremely empowering especially when you’ve maintained some sort of relationship with this person in your life. Although, I must say this, if you are forgiving again and again and allowing this person to step back into the same place in your life, you must REMEMBER and protect yourself. You have not learned your lesson from this experience if it continues to harm you.

I look at it this way, we are all human and we mess up at times, the first time is a mistake. The second time, is really bullshit and someone else’s dysfunction is getting in the way of your health.

Now, it depends on the situation. If you are talking about immediate family, for example a child with a drug addiction, I will forgive time and time again but I will make sure I am not enabling. The tough love process is really difficult but necessary in this scenario. Although, if you are talking about a cheating spouse who continues in infidelity time and time again, gather your self worth and move on. Remember the experience, understand if you were just caught in the crossfire or part of the dysfunction and empower yourself with this information then find someone who deserves your partnership!

In this scenario, it is especially important to forgive because by doing so you dissolve the toxin within and change it to a loving energy otherwise you will attract another cheater.

Forgiveness from betrayal takes work but the effort is worth it, what are your thoughts about it?

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Two small letters for possibility, continued...


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There is a common thread through all of my articles about hopelessness or feelings of powerlessness, this is the strength gained from acceptance, from surrendering to a mental fight that is getting you no where fast.

This is the disconnect between the mind, body and spirit. Your mind is in the future desperately wanting your dream for the life, while your body is suffering in the present mess you have manifested and above it all your spirit struggles to get these 2 very important pieces back in alignment. Nightmares are an example of the spirit trying to get you to process the day to day mess in order for you to release the bad energy and enable you to move forward.

The spirit is the glue that keeps us going even amongst the most traumatic hardship. When we quiet ourselves down and sit in a sacred space, it allows the spirit to heal and soothe. It is something we should do as often as possible although, life struggle seems to get in the way of this.

What are your thoughts about empowerment? What helps you move beyond hardship?


Sunday, October 6, 2013

His life of crime, continued...



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Debbie Frye shared more, “Growing up we only knew of two of our father’s crimes; the 1960 counterfeiting operation involving twenty-eight men and an ex-Cleveland cop and the 1967 armed robbery and kidnapping of a prominent West Virginia realtor.   We became researchers at the Library of Congress and accumulated over one hundred newspaper articles detailing his life of crime.  We conducted countless interviews with judges, lawyers, wardens, prisoners, accomplices, victims, friends and relatives.  We even spent the night in the Moundsville, WV prison we visited him at when we were children.  The prison is now closed but open to the public for tours.

We found that he was imprisoned a total of 9,277 days of his life.  In addition to the two crimes that we knew about, we learned that the first crime he was arrested for was when he was just 17.  He assumed the identity of a local business man and cashed forged checks; for this sentence he was sent to a reform school for boys.

We also found that our father joined a bandit gang which terrorized Pittsburgh.  Police duped them the Wheelchair Gang because it was headed by a Fagin bound to a wheelchair.
After holding up a dice game in the 1940s and while being held in the Ohio County, WV jail, our father masterminded a sensational escape with five other inmates.  When finally apprehended in Los Angeles on Hollywood Boulevard, newspaper reports indicate he was living better than a Hollywood playboy.
  
In the process of trying to help the adoptee, we befriended our father’s 1967 armed robbery/kidnap victim.  Once we found him we wanted to meet him and apologize for our father’s actions, and to show him that we turned out okay, despite our father’s criminal ways.   He is now 92 years old and encouraged us to write a book.  He is eager for the story to become a movie before he passes.”

Do you wonder how these ladies found their way through such an investigation?

She explained, “We always thought that we would keep our childhood a secret.  Turns out that the adoptee was not our sibling but merely a conduit to our past.  If it was not for her, we would have never researched our father’s past and come to find closure.  Re-tracing our father’s path in life has been a fascinating experience.    We now have a better understanding of the man he was, not just the father we knew.   Along the way, we learned it’s not where you come from it’s where go in life.
Our father found irony in the fact that my sister and I were both employed by the Central Intelligence Agency (CIA); he felt as if he got one over on the government.  He really did not play a big part in my employment background investigation because I only lived with him for two years when I was a baby before he went back to prison.  He was not a big influence in my life but my mother always encouraged all of us to get to know him.  Because of the nature of our work with the CIA, gathering intelligence was second nature to us.  We used many resources available to us to thoroughly and completely uncover our father’s past.”  
Debbie has learned to let go, “Now, I truly have a better understanding of the man he was, especially after learning he was abandoned by his own mother as a toddler along with his sister.
When I was a child, I think I forgave him as soon as he was released from prison and was back in my life (at age 12).  As an adult, I let go of all the hurt, but still felt ashamed.   I avoided conversations about my father at all costs.  I thought if I were to admit that my father was a criminal, someone might think lesser of me.  I was just holding onto the feelings that I had as a child.  Now that I am openly admitting his criminal past, I have even let go of the shame. 

I am grateful for my life experiences as I continue on my life journey.  I try to avoid and eliminate relationships that require too much energy.  There is no need for negativity; by changing the way you think, you can change your life.  I am hopeful that by sharing our story we can help others overcome their own childhood adversity.”

Her thoughts about life, “Our lifetime experiences shape us, especially our childhood ones.  When I was a child there were no resources available to us to help us deal with having an incarcerated parent.  I found a great organization that I donate to and volunteer for locally called Opportunities, Alternatives and Resources (OAR).   Since the family also serves the sentence with their incarcerated loved one, it is important for the family to be supported; they are often the forgotten victims.  OAR has many programs available to mentor the incarcerated as well as support the families of the incarcerated.
As my mother’s primary caregiver, her situation and rapid mental decline forced me to place her in a nursing home earlier this year.  It has been very difficult to see a woman who was so strong and independent her whole life suddenly become dependent, scared, anxious and maniacal at times.  I visit her on a daily basis so she knows I am still there for her, but because of the changes in her brain function, she has stopped walking and does not follow verbal commands.  She has good days and bad days; some days she still loves me but other days, not so much.  A family friend once told me, ‘Just hope when you are old and in need, there is someone there that loves you as much as you love your mother!’

Because I work from home, I am fortunate enough to have four Labrador Retrievers as my co-workers.  Our work breaks consist of playing Frisbee and ball.  They were all rescues but it’s true, they rescued me.  Each one has a personality of their own and the ability to love unconditionally.  Someday I will have a dog farm and house rescues that will be trained to become emotional support companions.” 

Debbie and her sister captured this investigative journey.
Her closing words, “This journey was unlike no other two sisters could share.  We uncovered the sad beginning of a boy abandoned in his youth, left on the porch of relatives along with his sister and a basket of damp laundry.   It was said that he was a boy that had more brains and guts than he knew what to do with!  He grew up to become a notorious opportunist whose crimes netted more money than many legendary outlaws.  He once told us, ‘I could tell you stories that could sell a book.’  Unfortunately, we never asked him to elaborate.

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